absence

Let's talk about knowing too much.

"I could not speak, and my eyes failed,
I was neither living nor dead,
and I knew nothing,
Looking into the heart of light,
the silence.
Od' und leer das Meer."

-TS

"I didn't know anything anymore,
I didn't care,
and it didn't matter,
and suddenly I felt really free."

-JK

I scrawled the second quote all over New Zealand public restrooms in 2004. It was my dissent. Towards/against what? (Does the preposition really matter as long as it still conveys the meaning of force? Being pushed and being pulled still suck.)

I'm waiting for an epiphany.